One hour it’s good, one hour it’s bad.

I knew the time was coming I just wasn’t sure when.  I was on the way to the store the other day when I noticed I was out of cigarettes.  I desperately wanted NOT to buy them so, instead, I went to the pharmacy and bought nicotine patches.  The work well and I know that a majority of the cravings I am getting are exclusively mental but they are cravings none-the-less.

Gum has become my new best friend and drinking massive amounts of water - instead of gorging on food- has taken the place of my sweet Camel death sticks.

Step-by-step, day by day…sometimes wanting to live a full long life takes more energy and mental gusto than I could have ever imagined.

Posted on July 31st, 2007 by The User
Filed under: tags are for fags, Life Can Suck, Addiction